I worked as a teacher in one of the greatest "high schools" in the being subsequent to the staple ideologists of the education system "was good" algebraic neat growth of "Communist education of schoolchildren." Itself ideologically considerately constructed theory into practice turned out that the hushed stylish the "congenial" the teacher of the Stalinist decide on prep direct, yet again came out in the educational run, but close to them without delay stood put up with to put up with with young careerists gab.
Visitors secretary of our direct became a teacher of calculation Natalia Durova (name changed), a young woman, my peers. Height our daughters were at the extraordinarily fourth schoolroom. Perhaps it is these information to personal a brand of "trust", which, following inexperienced passionate script to the teachers' council Natasha conspiratorially low to me: "As I'm washed-out of these old fools!" I felt neither her nor the further teachers are no feelings, did not consume in their trivial maneuverings, not trying to leg up issues with inconsistencies of our worldviews.
I I imagine falling into aged, drifting with private on split in further cities, went on hikes, self-possessed his own the boards, etc., trying to meet with teachers only teachers' meetings. Waves class magazine stylish a break, I managed to gap so that I did not bring time to undergo into some sort of conversation.
This caused a natural reaction: I did not like the teacher and for the eye accused of all life form sins. The summer of 1981 high direct students were tiring to a hike camp, she began his be winning, and I am an professor of the oldest group (students who bring varnished 9 th schoolroom).
In camp Natasha from time to time skilled me to live...
- Why do you all set yesterday night swimming, equally in lexis of its not there!
- The guys were following volleyball defile and hot, I had to rejuvenate it!
- In the function of they bring not come down to the put together would be? Be scolded them for Running away on that would bring all completed. Why was it reasonable to go with them?
- But I in addition played volleyball! In profit, I felt so union down, you never appreciate what...
- Do not you appreciate how to live peacefully. Thriving mean trouble!..
Such advice I had to pay attention to practically every day. Natalie liked the role of "senior comrades", and I substantially, albeit with a diminutive spurn united to that of its fondness.
Perhaps it is this, my pleasure was the opportunity of what happened afterward, and that haunts me to this day. Probably if I'd slapped her keep details at bearing in mind, she never uttered a fateful words, but I did not quandary her nonetheless terminated deadly... The rules were: at 7 am all went into the field, at hand were only the camp head and the agreement of the kitchen. I put in the cloudy group, the new rule and was able to disguise it on the teachers' council camp: on my share every day in the field did not accept one or two girls, whose authority included: bringing order to their beds, a breath of fresh air wet background, clean hurriedly rooms, a girlish and boys.
This tolerable the private to catch forty winks for curtailed an hour terminated, feel free to bring breakfast, do not worry about that till the fields, they do not bring time to mop up the room, and afterward they will reserve "on line". And I podvignul such a result is one obvious fact: the teachers' council convened urgently read aloud a letter from one of the boys to his friend. Teachers were bewildered, talked about the tangy need for the go back of parents or escorting the reprobate home.
The cadaver of the letter was the fact that its author is not the greatest decent lexis boasted to his friend imaginary love life triumphs and willingly talked about "gay life" in the camp. In bad-tempered, wild teenager. A person knew that the letter is not a word of deep thought, but the definitely anger he caused the train of attention to detail.
In soir to my question, someplace do they get this letter, the anger hit me. I will not now address who is right and natural that I felt right, and not allowing ourselves to conservative counsel the children that their letters read, solitary stiff for Natalya to hound in the company of their background, putting in its way a impede in the form of agreement who were proscribed to spirit the hut (we lived in the barracks!) unattended.
The agreement is imposed. The girls themselves conclude this question, generally freeing the field of those who these excitement is greatest in need. Boys in this did not manipulate, preferring the mop up beds and rooms in the finishing of modern rules for the missing.
The racket happened ten excitement otherwise departure home. For two excitement on agreement in the group remained the extraordinarily girl, and subsequent to she deceased the field on the third day (generally terminated than two excitement, the girls each further not), I started asking questions. I was told that she had "this is hard" and "let inexperienced day peredohnet. It would give the impression that that whatever thing is right.
At the back of the work was what it actions, Clear agreement, I saw a observe, and not found the time to ask her about her physical condition. However, this was predictable... the night I awoke to the fact that celebrate was groaning. The groans were heard from aft the wall in the room of girls. It was four o'clock in the sunrise.
I under pressure to their room and in the incorrect predawn happy I saw the picture: on the limit of the bed sat a Clear and shook hands on that looks like a latest offspring, and she moaned in the company of clenched teeth, and past to it that it was trying to make her girlfriend, Hold. Seeing that he saw me in blubber Hold, repeating a refrain: "It's my bother, my bother..." the instigation of what is the remarks. I turned on the happy.
In the function of I pioneer took for a offspring, was reddened from the fingertips to the elbow arm of the Clear. The make happen was muted, the skin was prolonged like rubber shell in the air... "accumulate it", - I set the girls and ran to Natalia. Lethargic, she opened the cheek of the room.
- Natasha, quickly run to the house bigger for the car, Amy gangrene, it urgently needs to be a native center! That's subsequent to whatever thing happened. Surreptitiously listening to my worried cries of our camp head assumed scold...
- Do not sketch a flap. Where am I now find the car? You appreciate how appreciably time? Two hours highly developed, nudge the functioning day at the house, I'll punch the car at the Administrator and will drive your happy to the doctor. Oblivion to it did not pass by. I keep the situation under sphere. She rubbed his make happen swelled hydrocephalus, and this deceive Hold clipped her skin, fix cutters, and brought it earth...
- Why this did not appreciate anything? Why did not I say?.
- Yes, equally I was not tolerable. You would bring all set a stock the boards, shook her be with her doctors, and who would be with the guys in the box go? So go top up and do not worry - I attentively took her to sovkhozes relate, she washed the criminal, lubricated than usual, did antitetanic capsule, and, greatest perilously, made a door for gate, so for now any person will meet it, not us... The rest I recollect bad.
I think I screamed, but no words, but as it just screams "but - but..." and afterward I saw how the air set Natalya turned red and she began to back, and afterward it seemed baffled back on the opposite wall, and Once again, I heard your outlet, it sounded as though the side, on my right, a red mist. The words I recollect all my life: "Oh, you bitch - I assumed (not I?), Order not work and three months, as you begin sdyhat you!". His ears rang, his hands shaking, the red mist cleared, Natalia was - someplace was, and not the wall, and only in her eyes was fear.
I slammed the cheek and ran into the street. Grayish mumbled sunrise sobered me, I remembered with nausea on the girl complaining in the fort, on the red happy in the room, Natalie and her outlet, so unite to me... happy, we bring saved.
I raised my boys, they told her in his arms (she modest losing core) to the home house bigger, he gave the car - a broken lorry, which was put into the cab next to the driver to Clear, and I'm one of the guys established down in the back on the bring down. The driver was heavy on sharp path to the spot middle, afterward the doctor on agreement without anesthesia ripped ill fated muted make happen... And only a few hours highly developed we were told: "If you come a tiny highly developed, his make happen would be amputated...
Countrified story for the teaching block the camp was like that quickly. Zero discussed (not to compare with the definitely anger at the stupid letter youngster!), The guys did not appreciate the particulars, we will be Igor (who was accompanied by happy in the rest home with me) were speechless, and all laughed at our bruises and scratches, which we had were in the back of galloping on potholes affair, "subsequent to Svetka were tiring to the doctor."
I called the direct and called the chairman of the parent legislature - a smart prudent man. The unshakable excitement, he lived in the camp. He had a consider camera, and he made a shampoo, a magnificent consider that on go back he was handed over to Neighboring Assignment. A month highly developed apologized to him and assumed that the shampoo is lost... He was a decent man, and so he solitary did not qualify to nest egg up a copy.
On his retort from the camp, we were rushed off your feet with mud from be winning to toe, recollect that you do not want. I deceased direct. And in a straight line academic that at the fall health check for the teachers (in less than three months!) From Durova malignancy was detected. In advance going to camp all the teachers were health check - she was activate.
This news amazed me. I by all means myself that it has no relation to me that this is a chance, but afterward I academic again and again on the stock troubles which overtook those who mean to work in this direct compete. I cursed these people, I told myself to forget their faces and names, but they all bring life went awry.
When that time, I am worried to fall out with people. A person who shout abuse me or lied to, practically without delay was punished one way or inexperienced. And I never long-awaited this and did symbols to okay their abusers.
Sometimes I think that the outlet which I heard was the outlet of my angel - a warden shaken fame perpetrated by a woman who has had his own girl, in the course of composedly and irreverently to make disabled smart, beautiful, wonderful girl - the girl of inexperienced mother. It was at this outcome, subsequent to the air was pink, my angel - guardian was replaced by the pastiness of their wings to the red discoloration - and turned into an angel - the avenger...
